Life & Death

Recently, One of my friend remebered this

” The tragedy of life is not death,but what we let die inside of us while we live “ 

how true !!! infact, i got this thought that death may not be a tragedy at all !! It might just be a transit from our limited consciousness to a universal consciousness.. now whats an universal consciousness !! Lets talk a little about our Limited Consciousness first. Imagine this, as a living person till the end of our lifetime, how many people we can come across ? may be 300 or 500.. obviously we cant remember that many names also at any given point of time. Our world, Our Brain, Our Body function only when our consciousness is LIMITED.. We live in a narrow world, surrounded by very few people through out our lifetime compared to the world we have.. A guy or his name, who is living in japan/US doesnt make sense to us (our brain), since he is not part of our Conscious world, that each one of us have built around us.

This is all well known for all of us, i am just re-iterating it. Now whats the Universal Consciousness could be ??? Imagine you sitting in one part of world, can sense and feel what george bush is doing in his white house, or What a small creature in one of the oceans is doing right now.. and so on how would it be if you can sense everything in this whole world ? whats going on in space ? whats going in far far galaxies ? Imagine a Consciousness which is part of everything and which is everything.. Ofcourse i am speaking about GOD. So how would it be ? being part of such consciousness which is Universal ?

We cant feel a thing or express anything then, Coz we all are ONE then.. there is no you and no me. In such case, We would loose our individual consciousness, and be part of a greater thing.. How can you express something to yourself which you are already part of ? Wouldn’t Death be something like that ?? Why not ?? I or anyone can’t tell you how it would be, coz we have not experienced it.  But we can definitely try to imagine it.. We can imagine anything, isnt it ? Why not imagine After Death to be beautiful then ?  Afterall, who knows !! It might definitely be more than beautiful, more than anything we experienced. Only that You won’t be able to Express how it would feel, coz you would have lost your INDIVIDUAL & LIMITED Consciousness and gained a HIGHER Consciousness.

Well, by the end of the day what difference it makes to us right now ?? What difference it makes, by whatever we imagaine about death/after death to be beautiful than Life?? Truly speaking NOTHING. All we can do is to TRY AND KEEP WHAT’S INSIDE US AND WHAT’S SURROUNDING US ALIVE TILL WE DIE.. You know What i mean !!!

Act of Life !!

What an Act is Life …

I suppose we all act every now & then in our lives, sometimes consciously and unconsciously at other times. We put on these beautiful plays infront of other human beings, that it (acting) has subconsciously become part of our life.

We put up these faces, these roles everyday to get something done or to please others or whatever the reason might be.. the reason itself is not important, whats important is that we act perfectly when the time demands, We cry, We laugh, We blame, We do lot many other things that academy award winners can only imagine to do. I guess these acts are part of our sub-conscious brain that, we dont even realize any more that we are acting.. it becomes a habit.

Everyone will act.. A child may act to get his toy or chocolate from his/her mother. A student may act to escape from his/her superiors or parents to get away with his low grades in studies, A husband may act before his wife, and a wife before her spouse to get things what she needs.

Sometimes I feel like surrounded by all these puppets, people who are constantly acting out to get along with their lives… And at times, I become one of them. And perhaps, we act to conform to the strings of society, such as Culture, Religion, Sex, Fame, Money.. i’m not getting perfect picture here though.. what i see is that people hanging onto these strings until they die..

What A splendid Act we put up by the end of the day.

What An Act is Life …

P.S:- Its dramatic and load of shitt, i know, still i did kind of liked when i got the thought.. so there goes the crap above..

WALL-E Widget

Looking forward to meet WALL-E

WALL-E Widget

My resolution for 2008

I ‘v e set up a resolution for the year 200 8…..

  

My Resolution for  this  Year – 1024 by 768 pixels !!!!!! he hee

                                                               What’s yours???     

Jokes apart, i feel Resolutions are for those who screw with their lives.. ((since i cannot stand on one;) i have to throw blame on other people who implement resolutions sincerely!!!,thats a different point altogether)). Well truly, i had a resolution once which didnt even lasted a day!! he hee 

Then wats so special about any new year ?? 

Well we all are still breathing !! arent we ? We all are blessed to have pass thru one more little spec of time with our bodies and minds functioning perfectly normal.. I dont want to look paranoid, but just imagine what if we were born in ethiopia in Africa, Worst place in the world as per UN reports. I mean what if we dont have proper basic necessities and all the deadly diseases on the planet are surrounding us? my point is simple.. at this point of time called new year, we need to take time and appreciate life around us!! human mind is the most complex entity of earth, we tend to clutter our mind with lots of things, we feed it with lots of inputs and variables, that we forget when it has become rusty and filled with one or other feelings that will only make you and others unhappy.

why do we tend to make situations worse ? is it in the human nature ? perhaps or perhaps not. why do we imagine things like fear, hate, jealousy, fear of losing, where as we all know perfectly that by the end of the day, when its time for us to depart nothing matters. we only do less than what we can do with such a cluttered Mind and Soul.

I know you people must be thinking, this guy is full of shitt.. he is blabbering something as if he is some kind of saint.. ofcourse i am not a saint, i am human, and yes i am dumb and i do mistakes in life and i have done a lot of them..

I dont know if anyone has said this before but i am loving this sentence already as soon as it came to my mind — “Mistakes are Life”. without mistakes there are no memories, without mistakes there is no improvement, without mistakes there is no change, mistakes lets you realize what you are, who you are and why you are!!.. but i certainly dont spend time dwelling on the past or whining about what i did !! while there is so much life infront of us.. realize there is whole world, universe for you to conquer, for you to play, be a kid.. start playing, see the joy in things around you. Realize what you truly are !!

My message for this new year to all of you is simple – Follow your heart, do what you want (this again depends on how well you realize what you only you want) .. Let people judge you, its their problem, they have to deal with it if they dont like you. Those who will like us would respect us, and let us to do what we want to do. Stop and i mean STOP NOW bothering about stupid things.. how can i showoff more before others ? how to save money for my kids (you are not even married damn it) ? how to gain more acceptance from others (stop bullshitting around,  nobody cares what you do, try be yourself ) ? how bad are other people and how to criticize them (stop being nosey, mind your god damn business, Stop Judging others) ? Why do this person doesn’t like me (let him go to hell, those who like you like you, those who dont , wont like you even if you jump off from earth) ? why do other people are ahead of me ( stop gossiping, while you are gossiping and wasting time around, others might have worked hard. What you Truly want, is What you get. And What you Have is What you Wanted. Nothing more Nothing less ) ?

Instead concentrate your energy on yourself. Channel your wasted energy on whining and bothering into something that can make you happy. something that will give you a purpose, something that elates your heart and soul.  It all starts from thinking how lucky you are rather than all those people around the world whose lives are going to end without able to see tomorrows sun. See how important is it to live in present than past or future.  THINGS ARE ALWAYS SIMPLE. ITS US who complicate them. HAVE FUN IN WORK and in PLAY. Once again Happy NEW Year to all of you.

P.S:- I know i irritate people when i get free time and get bored.. but writing is fun to me.. So i just dont give a Damn about if you read this or not .. if you like it or  not.. just go **** yourself.. gimme a break. he hee

Friends

 Wow.. without them this life would be so awful to live !! I dont want to say how great friendship is and how beautiful friends are ( opposite sex ones especially!! ), because everyone knows that…its an obvious fact. But i really wonder what gene is responsible for us to feel such an beautiful feeling about other people. This feeling which is so JOYFUL, HAPPY and Amazing only happens when we are with Friends. LOVE, yes i agree that is something which can defy anything, But Only Friendship is the only bond that is much needed and equals love on all levels or may be surpasses love. I mean you love, and you get pain at some point of time. But Friendship, all it offers in its true form is Happiness. I couldnt imagine or for the matter no one can ever imagine not having a friend who is so close to heart, who makes you smile when you think about him/her. There will be lots of friends who make you feel like that.. if there are you are luckiest one..you can go ahead and give your girlfriend my number !! i know totally inappropriate. Ok anyhow, what can i write about the people with whom we spend most of our life with !! with whom we share the most memorable moments in our life, without which our life would become as tasteless as the coffee that comeout of Vending machines in coorporate offices :).  without them life would be like watching daily serials in local channels for 60 years, without them life suckssssssss.. So My DEAR FRIENDS.. This is to all those people that surround us and make our life worth living every day until we die.. I LOVE YOU ALL. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY.

So no one told you life was gonna be
this way *clap*clap*clap*
Your jobs a joke, you’re broke,
your love life’s D.O.A.
*clap*clap*clap*   ( How much true, anyday when you are broke, your friend is there with you to say its alright )

It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
When it hasn’t been your day,
your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
Coz you’re there for me too…

You’re still in bed at ten and
work began at eight
*clap*clap*clap*
You’ve burned your breakfast so
far… things are goin’ great
*clap*clap*clap*

Your mother warned you
there’d be days like these
Oh but she didn’t tell you when
the world has brought
You down to your knees that…  (Each one of us should go through the hardships life will put us into, parents cant help you in that, but a friend can )

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you’re the only one who knows
What it’s like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I’ll always laugh with
Even at my worst I’m best with you, yeah  ( Now this is the true meaning of what friendship is, only a friend can know more about you than you know yourself, and definitely when with friends we are Almighty in our own respect)

It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
And it hasn’t been your day,
your week, your month,
or even your year…

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
Coz you’re there for me too…

I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you
Coz you’re there for me too…

Thankyou People for being there..

Youtube video of Friends Theme song

Good one about love

An interesting excerpt from someothers blog…

link is here http://luvzlabourzneverlost.blogspot.com/

LOVE’S LABOUR IS NEVER LOST

My husband is an engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons for me loving him before have now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day,I finally decided to tell him my decision,that I wanted a divorce.”Why?” he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemed to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who can’t even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? Finally he asked me: what can I do to change your mind?

somebody said it right: it’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind– Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me? He said: I will give you your answer tomorrow.. My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door. 
The note read: ” My dear, I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the resons further.” This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading…” When you use the computer, you always mess up the software programs, and you cry infront of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore those programs and wipe off your tears. 

You always leave the house keys behind, so I  have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for  you. You love travelling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your ‘good friend’ approaches everymonth, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. 

So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your face…

So, My dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do, I could not pick that flower yet, and die…” 

My tears dropped on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. I continued reading… “Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside, like everyday, with your favourite bread and fresh milk.” I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread. Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone. That’s life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. 

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model, it could be the dullest and boring form. Flowers and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands. And that’s reason enough to live.

Akira

Akira - Cartoon Movie ( 1988)
    

I strongly recommend this to everyone who likes cartoons and sci-fi and action. I watched it when i was a kid, may be in 7thclass i dont remember exactly but till now i remember the most of the scenes from the movie, that was the impact it had in those days. Memories were almost fading, so i decided to watch it again yesterday night.  Its intriguing story and the direction makes you totally absorbed into it. Right from the starting scene you will feel the thru st and you will grow more and more desperate to seehow its going to end. And after sometime you will forget you are actually watching a cartoon movie. Somehow I feel we wont take cartoons so seriously, coz back in our mind we know they are not human and every minute our brain sends a signal saying that they are just for entertainment, fun or just to make us laugh. what i want to say,  its tough to get connected with cartoons coz its not the humans acting before us, or we know there is no life in the characters and since we have this prenotion in our mind, its hard to feel for the cartoons the way we feel when we watch the regular movies.  But as i said earlier, this one is different, you just get lost in this. You wonder about the AKIRA- the energy that resides in every living being when Kei speaks about it, and the ability within everyone of us to realize its strength and to choose how to use it. you can understand Tetsuo’s arrogance,  his desperatness to prove that he doesnt need any help, and how this desperatness transforms into hatred for Kanedaa.. You admire the perservance of Kaneda, his caring for Tetsuo and then his Will to stop him and then his revenge to kill him through out the story. You can feel Scientists urge to discover the bigger truths that no one of us had ever known, their search for Akira, for Universe. You can feel the Power of Tetsuo when he destroys the Colnel’s army with the superb background music. Its pure brilliance how the director Brings NEO-TOKYO to Life. His way of narrating the story, the Political and Social Unrest after the WorldWarIII in Neo-Tokyo. At the end you will feel ” Did i watch a cartoon film until now !!!!!!!! ” And some scenes when you see the colnel entering the Underground facility the director gives every detail of the doors and the locks to enter the chamber, and after that when Tetsuo arrives at the same place, you release why he showed that in so much detail. All these things  are so brilliant that this movie will stay in your memories for long long time…

Now i can see why i loved it when i was a kid….

Db2 on SAP

SAP is the application which i am working with right now. So let me give an eagle view of DB2 on SAP.

SAP is one hell of a package, it is nice to work with and simplifies all the Commands that we issue in DB2 into simple Transaction codes. SAP has its own customized tablespaces, bufferpools, tables, which it will create during the Installation of the software. As we know db2 creates 3 tablespaces in the beginning to work for, one SYSCATSPACE, one USERSPACE1, and one TEMPSPACE. While installing SAP, it makes lot of changes in the DB2. Basically in SAP, for every Instance an Unique Systemidentifier will be given, which they call as SID. While installing, SAP creates an instance named as DB2<SID>, it creates users with sysadm and sysctrl privileges with userids db2sid and sidadm. SID can be anything that is specified by us, i.e for a production system we can give SID as PRD. In that case, the instance name would be db2prd and users db2prd and prdadm will be created. Also it will drop Userspace and tempspace and creates its own customized tablespaces. Based upon the installation you are performing (i.e whether you are installing r3 or B.W or ICH or APO e.t.c these are few names of the modules in SAP ) tablespaces with customized tables will be created. For eg:- in R3 system most of the data will be stored in PSAPBTABD tablespace, likewise for a B.W system the data will go into PSAPFACTD, PSAPODSD, PSAPDIMI tablespaces.

Tablespaces in a R3 system

TBSPACE
————————–
PSAPBTABD
PSAPBTABI
PSAPCLUD
PSAPCLUI
PSAPDDICD
PSAPDDICI
PSAPDIMD
PSAPDIMI
PSAPDOCUD
PSAPDOCUI
PSAPEL31GI
PSAPEL46BD
PSAPEL46BI
PSAPEL640D
PSAPES31GI
PSAPES46BD
PSAPES46BI
PSAPES640D
PSAPFACTD
PSAPFACTI
PSAPLOADD
PSAPLOADI
PSAPODSD
PSAPODSI
PSAPPOOLD
PSAPPOOLI
PSAPPROTD
PSAPPROTI
PSAPSOURCED
PSAPSOURCEI
PSAPSTABD
PSAPSTABI
PSAPTEMP
PSAPUSER1D
PSAPUSER1I
SYSCATSPACE
SYSTOOLSPACE
SYSTOOLSTMPSPACE

38 record(s) selected.

Also SAP will set the registry variables of DB2, in newer versions SAP WORKLOAD knob is available. That is registry variables DB2_WORKLOAD is set to SAP which automatically influences other registry variables to be set according to SAP.

Then there is the physical layout of the tablespaces and containers. Naming convention used by SAP to store the datafiles or containers is

/db2/SID/sapdataN in unix where N is an integer can be from 1 to 10

C:\db2\SID\sapdataN in windows where the drive ‘C’ is not mandatory, anydrive can be specified which has enough space.

As far logs are considered, SAP identifies the logs in the directory /db2/SID/log_dir/SID. So after installing we should create a symbolic link from the usual Log Directory i.e /db2/SID/db2SID/NODE0000/SQL00001/SQLOGDIR/ to the /db2/SID/log_dir/SID, so that all logs will be transferred to the new location and stored there from now on. So all active logs can be found at the path /db2/SID/log_dir/SID

Similarly folders /db2/SID/log_archive/SID and /db2/SID/log_retrieve/SID are used for the archiving and retrieving purposes. After the SAP is installed, the Database with name SID is created. And this database would be in Circular Logging Mode. One has to turn on Logretain On and Userexit On and take a backup to change it to Archival Logging mode. Then the Logs will start archiving to /db2/SID/log_archive/SID once they get offline. For that to happen SAP supplies a Customized Admin Tools which sets the environment variables in the .Profile file as follows :-

setenv DB2DB6_ARCHIVE_PATH /db2/DVL/log_archive # used for ARCHIVE
setenv DB2DB6_RETRIEVE_PATH /db2/DVL/log_retrieve # used for RETRIEVE

This Admin Tools has to be downloaded from SAP service marketplace and has to installed using the command sddb6ins..you can search for db2udb admintools in the service marketplace to find the procedure to install admin tools. while installing the admin tools we can specify to create a Admindatabase or not to create it. If we choose to create it, one more database named as ADMSID will be created in the local database directory.  you can see two databases if you list the database directory as below :-

System Database Directory

Number of entries in the directory = 3

Database 1 entry:

Database alias                            = PRD
Database name                          = PRD
Local database directory          = /db2/PRD
Database release level               = a.00
Comment                                     = SAP R3 database PRD
Directory entry type                   = Indirect
Catalog database partition number    = 0
Alternate server hostname            =
Alternate server port number         =

Database 2 entry:

Database alias                              = ADMPRD
Database name                             = ADMPRD
Local database directory             = /db2/PRD
Database release level                  = a.00
Comment                                       =
Directory entry type                     = Indirect
Catalog database partition number    = 0
Alternate server hostname            =
Alternate server port number         =
And the Dump files are stored in /db2/SID/db2dump directory.

An example of physical layout of SAP on Unix system is given below :-

/dev/log_dirlv 9.00 7.75 14% 26 1% /db2/DVL/log_dir
/dev/trans_lv 27.50 26.25 5% 20603 1% /usr/sap/trans
/dev/lv_datavg1 15.00 4.00 74% 17 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata1
/dev/lv_datavg2 20.00 4.59 78% 20 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata2
/dev/lv_datavg3 19.00 3.94 80% 21 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata3
/dev/lv_datavg4 18.00 4.53 75% 18 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata4
/dev/lv_datavg5 27.50 10.92 61% 19 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata5
/dev/lv_sapdata6 14.00 2.01 86% 16 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata6
/dev/lv_sapdata7 13.00 3.95 70% 14 1% /db2/DVL/sapdata7
/dev/put_lv 4.00 1.07 74% 4365 2% /usr/sap/put
/dev/db2dump 15.00 14.90 1% 30 1% /db2/DVL/db2dump
/dev/log_retrieve 5.00 5.00 1% 5 1% /db2/DVL/log_retrieve
/dev/log_archive 26.00 14.23 46% 236 1% /db2/DVL/log_archive
/dev/sapmnt 5.00 4.02 20% 80279 8% /sapmnt
/dev/sapdatat 5.00 5.00 1% 8 1% /db2/DVL/sapdatat

So this is the basic setup that of DB2 on SAP.

signing off for now…

siva

Chris Cornell - You know My Name

This is definitely one of the best song in the James Bond movies.

Chris Cornell has given his wonderful voice and the beats of the song are truly superb.

Here are the lyrics of the song

Lyrics of the YKMN

If you take a life do you know what you’ll give?
Odds are, you won’t like what it is
When the storm arrives, would you be seen with me?
By the merciless eyes of deceit?

I’ve seen angels fall from blinding heights
But you yourself are nothing so divine
Just next in line

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can’t deny the prize it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name

If you come inside things will not be the same
When you return to the night
And if you think you’ve won
You never saw me change
The game that we all been playing

I’ve seen diamonds cut through harder men
Than you yourself
But if you must pretend
You may meet your end

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can’t deny the prize it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins

Try to hide your hand
Forget how to feel
Forget how to feel

Life is gone with just a spin of the wheel
Spin of the wheel

Arm yourself because no-one else here will save you
The odds will betray you
And I will replace you
You can’t deny the prize it may never fulfill you
It longs to kill you
Are you willing to die?

The coldest blood runs through my veins
You know my name

You can listen to the song in the ChrisCornell’s Myspace Page

CHRIS CORNELL’s MYSPACE PAGE—-

http://www.myspace.com/chriscornell